First in person Tarot Card Reading / Dream Connections

On Thursday I went to have a reading with Veronica Moya at Namaste Bookshop in New York (where I live). It has been a long time since I've had an in person reading of any kind. I have visited this shop several times, but 2 weeks ago I had a strong urge to get a reading. I looked on the website and went through all of the psychic they employ. Veronica was the one who I connected with. She was one of the more expensive one. I meditated on it and my intuition told me that the extra $10 would not equal the benefits I would get from her reading.

She tuned in to me very easily. She uses Tarot Cards but I could see her reading my energy field. She picked up on everything that was happening. Before I had my reading, I was feeling stuck in my spiritual life as well as my social life. While waiting for my turn, I started to feel my heart chakra close and tears come to my eyes. It has been a rough month and I wasn't sure she would be able to help or see anything for the future. I've been trying to be positive and co-create, but I've been feeling stagnant and that nothing is going at the speed at which I would like it to go.

She picked up on all of it and told me the plans that I have will put me on the right track. My intuition is very strong and I should stop 2nd guessing myself. I think 2nd guessing is a human emotion for those who are highly intuitive or not. I am not a very confident intuitive, I have to work on it.
I was feeling much better after the reading. My energy started to flow through my heart chakra and I felt lighter. Nothing had changed, the things in front of me didn't move any closer; however, my outlook on it has and I am OK that they are not right here now. Timing is a human construct but it is to our benefit.

I have been taking her advice on my intuition.  She said my first impression on something is always the right one, but I often ignore it, discard it or listen to someone else's ideas about it.  I've been more sure footed with this.

I've also noticed that my dreams have been connecting. I have made an effort to write down my dreams or at least the parts I remember for the past month.  I've always been a vivid dreamer, but never really went as far as to document them on a daily basis.  I've only documented the ones that seemed interesting or really out there.  But lately, I've been documenting the mundane ones as well.
Turns out, my dreams connect.  Especially if I don't get the point the first time.  I had a dream on the 14th of July. I documented it.  I thought about what it could mean but didn't really come up with anything solid.  I had a dream on the 24th of July that I immediately was able to connect to the earlier dream.  The pieces fit together and I understood what I was being told.  As Veronica said, I need to not 2nd guess myself.

It Slowly Comes Together - The Spiritual Awakening

I have been on a spiritual quest for almost 20 years. I started seeking when I met Carol in 1992. She was on her path to awakening. At this time I met another woman who was also on the path, her name is Maria. We often talked about spiritual/metaphysical topics such as: Dreams, Chakras and Mediation. Before I met them, I had an interest and attended a few meditation classes, but my interest didn’t really take until this time. When I left this job in 1997, my interest didn’t diminish, but without the daily interaction it stalled, as did my growth. I read books by Norman Vincent Peale and Dr. Wayne Dyer, but it didn’t go beyond that. I went back to sleep.

I had another child and remarried and my life was utter chaos. The marriage failed, I was now a single mother with 2 kids and I had Lyme Disease. Needless to say, things weren’t good and growth wasn’t happening. I grew interested in Wicca, Paganism & Buddhism. Anything that was not Catholic. I dabbled, but ultimately I became sedated in Catholicism.

I didn’t stay sedated or asleep however. I started really waking up again a few years ago. I have a friend named Bev, who lives in VA. Aside from her, I no longer had any friends who were interested in Spiritual topics. It was good to talk with her about it, but we were both on a path of discovery, and I needed someone who was a little more advanced. I met L.C. in 2011. She was well versed in the spiritual path and helped jostle me back to the light. I can run things by her and ask advice. She always has a logical answer to any question or problem I am having.

I have been slowly awakening since I met her. It had sped up from my previous state, but in hindsight, it was rather slow.

I don’t know what started the acceleration. I had no trauma in my life, it seemed to be spontaneous. One thing that happened at this time (which I don’t attribute to the acceleration) was I trusted someone, showed compassion and unconditional love and had my heart ripped out, stomped on and thrown in the fire. After this event…the awakening went from 0 to 60.

At first, I didn’t realize that this was what was happening. I thought I was losing my mind, and I couldn’t figure out why. Yes, I was hurt by this person, but I shouldn’t have been a mess. Looking back, I think what accelerated it was the act of compassion and unconditional love. At first, I thought it was a garden variety depression. But I started watching, reading and learning and I came across 51 Symptoms of Spiritual Awakening and was surprised at what I read. Some symptoms seemed obvious, some brought clarity to my situation. Some of the stranger things that started to happen, that are attributed to Spiritual Awakening that have happened to me were:

Skin Eruptions – I sometimes had a zit pop up now and then, but it started to get ridiculous. The minute I got rid of one, three more showed up. The strange thing was, these eruptions were around the mouth. I never had acne there, now I was averaging 5 zits a minute. (see #9 in link)

A Desire to find your soul mate/twin flame - I had not really had this desire. After my 2nd divorce, I concentrated on raising my kids. Lately, this desire has arisen in me with a vengeance. It is not due to sexual desire, I just know it is time. (see #50)

Changing Sleep Patterns – I only suffered from insomnia or sleep problems when I worried about things, especially money. Otherwise, I would sleep straight through and drag myself out of bed when the alarm rang. I would nap on the weekend, but it would be in one clip for an hour or two. Now I find I wake up at 3:00am during the week without the aid of an alarm. If I do this on the weekend, I will go for a walk, come back home, sleep for another 2 hours, wake up, do stuff, go back to sleep for an hour, get up, do stuff, go back to sleep for 2 hours…you get the picture. (see #1)

A desire to break free from restrictive patterns, life draining jobs, consumptive lifestyles, and toxic people or situations – This was one that threw me for a loop. I never was fond of negative people, so that was not a surprise, what was a surprise is that I could not longer tolerate the crap that is on TV. I used to love to watch certain shows. I never was a fan of the violent stuff (crime shows etc. – Except “Bones”) but I didn’t mind watching shows like “Under the Dome” and other things of that nature. Now, I can’t. Watching them is remonstrant that annoying car alarm at 1:30 in the morning. I also canceled my Netflix DVD’s. I tried to watch a movie, and thought it was awful, low vibration and just plain bad. It was all too much. I never thought I would not enjoy a good movie or TV show. A woman I sit next to at work, whom I chatted with daily, I suddenly found negative and superficial. I stopped my daily chit-chatting with her. She must think I’m depressed or have lost my mind. (see #17)

When I read this, I sound like a snob, but truly I’m not. I am just not able to tolerate certain things anymore. I actually find it fascinating.

Out of the 51 symptoms on the list, I am going through most of them. These are just the ones that are too unusual to not mention.

And one that isn’t on this list, but I saw it on other lists that had me take another look was the fact that I no longer judge people. If I see someone that looks ‘interestingly different’ I just notice it and make no judgment. I may complement them in my head saying something like (That is a clever outfit) but nothing negative. I think this is one of the coolest symptoms so far.

7 Day Positivity Challenge

The 7 Day Positivity Challenge

I first learned about this through a YouTube video that is put out by Leo at Actualized.org.

This challenge is to help bring about a more positive attitude.  Usually my attitude is pretty positive, however, I’ve just gone through something that brought me down from my base set-point (which is happy) to a much lower vibration. This vibration has come about due to fear, worry, abandonment, impatience, uncertainty and confusion. For 3-weeks I’ve been walking around crying in my soup and moping around like my life is worthless.  And why? Because someone hurt me, or because something happened that I didn’t anticipate?

I’ve been through 2 divorces, I’m stronger then that…right?  I thought so, but it seems that no matter how many times bad things happen, my emotional set-point plummets.  I’m doing better now, but I’m no where near where I should be.  I am having more positive and peaceful thoughts these days, and less negative ones.  Therefore, I’m going to attempt to force the hand.  7-days of no negative thoughts what so ever (this includes complaining).

You can read about the challenge <a href=http://karmicallycoaching.com/do-you-dare-to-take-the-7-day-positivity-challenge/” Here </a>.

Here is how this works:

For 7 consecutive days you must not allow yourself to dwell for a single moment on any kind of negative thought. 

If you break any of the other rules, you must start the 7 days all over from the beginning

You cannot focus on a negative thought or remain in a negative emotional state for more than five minutes.    Leo’s video says 60 seconds, I haven’t decided which time frame I’m going to use. But it will not exceed 5 minutes. Hopefully I will be able to catch it sooner rather than later.

You must focus on solutions.  When the negative thoughts start, the idea is to immediately start contemplating possible solutions. Spend time solving your challenges instead of focusing on them.

I especially like the last point.  However, for the ‘problem’ I’m currently having, there is no solution, so I will have to not focus on the problem and let the universe work it out or I can transcend it.

Today was the first day.  I was well aware of when my negative thoughts were creeping in.  I immediately changed them. I started to realize that they don’t come on like gang busters, but as small quiet thoughts that grow and grow until I’m worked up into a tizzy. 

I did find that although I am changing the vibration of my thoughts, currently the underlying sadness about my situation is still there.  I notice it, but don’t dwell on it.  I thought about how we had a beautiful day or how good my lunch tasted.  Anything to get my mind off of the sadness.  I’ll keep at it and one day the sadness will no longer be there.

This will be work, but I’m determined to do it.

Painting the Future - Movie

I am a youtube addict. I admit it. However, I don't watch cute cat videos, although they do make me smile. I tend to watch things that will aid in my spiritual awakening. While watching an interview with Sonia Choquette she mentioned that her family likes to watch movies from the Spiritual Cinema Circle. So I went to see if any of them were on youtube. She didn't name any, I just looked through what they had and came across this one. I am so glad I did. It is only about an hour, and it will make you think, make you cry, make you smile and make you hopeful.

Painting the Future - Movie

Baby Psychic

A true story:

It would be years before I realized what had happened to me. I pushed it to the back of my mind as the imagination of a toddler.  I estimate they happened somewhere between my 1^st and 3^rd birthday.

            I slept in a crib and my brother slept in a bed in the same room.  It was early morning and it was dark outside.  My mother came into the room to wake my brother.  I saw her walk in. I turned my head and looked at her through the slats.  Then I was no longer in my crib. I was watching her from the ceiling.  I floated there as I watched her pull the blanket off of him and try to arouse him.  I looked over and saw my tiny body still in my crib.  I wasn’t alarmed by this. I was a curious spectator.  I’m not sure how long I floated there on the ceiling.  This is something I remember without fail, and I’m not sure how old I was.  I would estimate I was probably in my 2^nd year.

            This next memory I think may have happened at an earlier date because I was crawling. I was sitting on the living room floor watching my mother in the bathroom combing her hair when I heard a noise in the kitchen.  Our apartment was small, and I was able to crawl from my spot to the kitchen in less than 20 knee strokes.  I peeked into the kitchen.  There I saw an orange glowing figure. It rotate toward me and smiled. The high pitched noise bothered me. At first I wasn’t afraid; I just sat there watching it.  Then it spoke to me. It said, “My name is Wigwam.”  Have you ever seen a toddler freak out for no apparent reason and wonder what was wrong with them?  You would have asked yourself that question if you were there. My sudden scream caused the figure to dissipate and did nothing but leave my mother annoyed.

            After many years of study and reflection I was finally able to put a name to these events.  The first one was astral projection.  Of course, at that age, it was spontaneous.  The second event, ahhh, now that’s a tricky one. Angel?  Spirit Guide? Ghost?  I could not tell you.  But it was another entity, and it seemed peaceful although I didn’t like it one bit.

            The fact that I remember these two events with such vividness still astonishes me.  Over the years I’ve had many different types of psychic experiences, and if I sit for a while, I can recall them. But no matter how hard I tried to suppress these events, I could not. And now…I don’t want to.